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Reddit AMA, Starred Dust & Grim, And More

Just belly-flopping into the ol’ blog here to splash you with a few drops of chlorinated update-water: first up, I’m doing a Reddit AMA today. Right now, in fact. Go there. Ask questions. I’ll be hanging out, A’ing your Q’s.

Second, Dust & Grim received a starred review (!) from Kirkus (!!):

“Chills and thrills ensue when long-separated siblings find themselves custodians of a very special funeral home and cemetery… not only is Wendig a dab hand at concocting extremely creepy critters, but here he also pulls together a secondary cast of quarrelsome but supportive allies for the beleaguered teens, featuring a (generally) low-key vampire, a mercurial fox spirit (“Cat software loaded onto dog hardware,” as one observer puts it), and other slyly tweaked supernatural grown-ups.”

Tomorrow night, I’m chatting virtually with Kiersten White at Boswell Books! And the final virtual event of the TBOA tour is getting to hang out with Cassandra Khaw at Powell’s on Thursday night. Come hang out, too! One event! Two events! Go back in time and do the other events! I don’t know! Where are my pants!

The book continues to be in the Top 100 at B&N, btw. Signed copies still available there. And available too at the other bookstores I visited and will visit virtually. And I can still do personalized copies through Doylestown Bookshop.

Finally, a reminder that The Book of Accidents is an August Indie Next pick! Woo!

THAT IS ALL

*ejects*

The Book Of Accidents: An Ask, And An Update

It’s been a really nice launch week so far for the book — I’m honestly in awe of how many people are reading the book and sending me photos of it and who are tweeting me their excited responses as they get through it. (I’ve had a few people DM me their read-throughs as they happen and it’s kinda awesome to watch people wriggle around in the story, trying to figure out just what the sweet hot hell is going on.) So, thanks, folks. It means a lot.

It means a lot in part because… this isn’t one of those easy books to describe, at least not for me. I’ve never really gotten a grip on how even to talk about it. Some books are very, very easy to give a snap-your-fingers pitch for — Grady Hendrix’s novels, for instance, come with a catchy logline that pops like the bubble from bubblegum — “It’s a horror novel written inside an Ikea catalog” is like, what the fuck, I’m in. Buying the ticket, taking the ride. My middle grade coming out in October, Dust & Grim, is blessed I think with an easy way to pitch it: a girl inherits a funeral home for monsters and has to share that inheritance with a brother she’s never met. Hell, you could cut it to, “a girl inherits a funeral home for monsters.” And that’s your open door. That’s the hook sunk into the meat of your cheek. The Miriam Black books: “Miriam Black* can see how you’re going to die by touching you.” Easy. You could add, “But if she wants to change fate, she’ll have to defy the stars” or something, but you don’t even have to say that — you get the hook or you don’t and that’s that.

But The Book of Accidents resists that kind of… logline characterization, which is ostensibly a no-no in Fiction Land. You bring this book to a writing conference and try to expound on it and they’ll spritz you with a water bottle like you’re a cat on the counter, fttz, fttz, BAD KITTY, YOU NEED A THREE-SECOND ELEVATOR PITCH OR NEW YORK PUBLISHING WILL TURN YOU INTO POTTED MEAT. I have ways, of course, of selling TBOA in a quick beat — “It’s a haunted house story that isn’t a haunted house story,” and that’s true, even though it doesn’t tell you a lot, it might be enough to get someone interested. “It’s about a family’s love in the face of evil,” or “A family moves back to the father’s childhood home and finds that something worse than ghosts haunt them,” or whatever. All fine. And you could get deeper, too, saying oh it’s about the pain we carry, it’s about being haunted generational trauma and cycles of abuse, it’s about bullies, it’s about empathy as our ultimate weapon against evil, it’s got ghosts and a serial killer and an evil tunnel and a boy who can do dark magic and a woman whose artwork comes alive and a father haunted by the ghost of his abuser and, and, and. It’s all of those things and even there, it’s not quite right, and now I’ve gone and spent a whole paragraph trying to tell you what the book is about.

Part of me thinks, well, that’s fine. Or it should be. Not every story should be “easy to pitch.” Certainly one of my favorite horror novels in recent years is Library at Mount Char, which… defies description, and even now I’m not going to tell you what it’s about, only that you should read it. You could probably quick-pitch a book like Cabin at the End of the World or The Only Good Indians (or The Three or Annihilation or, or, or), but… you also shouldn’t, I don’t think. Part of your willingness to buy those books is because you trust the author or you trust people telling you about the book, and sometimes it comes with a whispered entreaty like, “Don’t read anything about it before you start.” A warning not to look deeply. Don’t try to figure out what it’s about. Just read the book.

Hopefully, this book, TBOA, is that kind of book.

But, who knows?

What I will ask you is this: books like this really thrive in the light of love from readers. What that means is, anything you can do will help the book a lot more than anything I can do. That means, telling people about it. Yelling about it. It means leaving reviews somewhere (Goodreads, Amazon, and no you don’t have to buy the book at Amazon to leave a review there). It means ideally buying from an indie bookstore or at least a physical bookstore like B&N, because indie bookstores will hand-sell books in a way that a giant online-only space-dong retailer cannot. It means requesting from local libraries, because libraries are a fundamental community good, and there is no harm in using them, there is only goodness. It means you carrying a torch for the books you love, be it this one or another book. I think there’s a sense that authors are somehow above readers, like we’re on a stage and you’re in an audience, but it’s really that we’re down in a hole, and you’re all standing above it, and the only way we get up out of this darkness is by you reaching down and taking our hand and pulling us up. Readers matter in this way a whole, whole lot.

Especially with this kind of book. A weird book. Weird books need love.

So, that’s my ask: check the book out, share it, review it, duct tape the book to a rock and throw it through a neighbor’s window, let lightning strike the book and when it becomes animated by primal forces you begin to worship the Living Book as a brand new god in this realm. Or something, I dunno, I’m just fuckin’ spitballing over here.

To re-up, your procurement options include:

Indiebound | Bookshop | The Strand | Powells

B&N | BAM | Amazon | Apple | Kobo | Google

Audible | Libro.fm

So, there we go.

A quick news-scented update mist for you —

Reminder that tonight I’m virtually chatting with wonderful friend and amazing author Delilah S. Dawson at the University Bookstore in Seattle — but you don’t have to be in Seattle, you can stream our chat into your home via the magic of ALCHEMY I mean THE INTERNET. Details here. It’s 7:30PM EST (4:30 PST).

Also, Fountain Bookstore has been kind enough to put up my chat with Stephen Graham Jones last night for free to watch, if you’re interested — and you should be, because it was really fun and goddamn, he’s just a sharp, funny guy about writing and horror and everything. I should note that in the talk he asks me about my favorite haunted house movie and novel, and I completely whiffed it — my brain evacuated any haunted house media I’ve ever consumed, and I was left with only the howling void. (The other day I couldn’t remember Christopher Walken’s name either, and all I could come up with was, “He played Whitley Streiber.” WTF, brain.) So! Let me answer here — my favorite haunted house movie is probably The Changeling, or maybe The Orphanage. Best haunted house novel, besides Shirley Jackson’s Hill House, I’d say — nnnmmmngh, it’s tough, but Beloved is it, probably. And Hell House, by Matheson.

Tor.com posted a great review by Martin Cahill:

The Book of Accidents really does live up to those memories of summers spent between the pages of enormous tomes, horror or fantasy or science fiction, that gripped me by the throat and wouldn’t let me go until their tale was done. I finished this mighty book in two and a half days. Wendig has written a huge horror story with a surprising amount of heart that he earns with each page. It gets dark, it gets scary, and at times, it can seem like there’s no way forward. But there’s light at the end of the tunnel, and that’s no accident. I think readers are going to love this, especially if they’re craving that big summer read.”

And the Daily Mail reviewed it thusly:

“…what a ride.”

Okay, that’s the spoiler-free version. If you want the spoilery version, I’ve posted it here.

Let’s see, what else?

I’m gonna be on Brandy Schillace’s new show, Peculiar Book Club, on August 12th, 7pm. We will talk weird science and science fiction and how to make fiction feel real and feel true and all that stuff.

If you missed it, I got to hang with my buddy Steven Spohn, and talk about… well, anxiety and what makes us all tick and how we can be good to ourselves. A mental health booster. Check it out.

Oh, and finally, though I don’t think I’m supposed to care about this sort of thing, yesterday the signed hardcover of THE BOOK OF ACCIDENTS was #5 (!) in all of B&N (!!) so I dunno what the heck that’s about but I’m very excited, and thanks to B&N for putting the book out there with such gusto and prominence.

ANYWAY, I think that’s it for now.

Thanks, all. Have a wonderful weekend. Go watch Ted Lasso.

* I note that Blackbirds is on sale in e-book for $1.99 for the rest of the month.

The Book Of Accidents: More Updates For The Update God

WELL, the book is out, innit? It escaped the electric chair it was strapped into, and now, with a flash of searing lightning, it is free. It’s out there. Calling your name from the tunnel, from the rocks, from the old house. You can’t really stop it. So you might as well go along with it, yeah? Yeah.

Figure it’s worth doing another round of updates, if you’re the type of person who cares:

First up, tonight I’m talking with the Mighty Paul Tremblay, one of my favoritest writers, an always-buy author who knows how to write books that rip your heart out of your chest and eat them in front of you. We’re speaking virtually, ON THE COMPUTERS, hosted by The Strand and Metaverse/ReedPop. It should be a great conversation, so please do join!

What else?

In no particular order —

Fangoria has a new excerpt posted! Fangoria! I’m in Fangoria! A moment that, were I to travel back in time to meet Previous Self, Previous Self would casually shit his Previous Pants.

Polygon reposted an earlier excerpt, too, so check that out.

I did a podcast with Talking Scared, really one of my favorite conversations I’ve had yet not only in general, but around this book — if you like horror and fiction and all the squirrely bits about how to do it right or wrong or in-between, then I think this is a conversation you’ll enjoy: Chuck Wendig and the Comforting Embrace of Horror.

Rob Bedford at SFFWorld did a stellar review:

“The result, a modern masterpiece of Dark/Horror Fiction. Highest possible recommendation, it will tough for another book to knock this off of my top spot for 2021.”

And one of my favoritest people, Sadie Hartmann, reviews the book over at Tor Nightfire, with a review title that already has me a-swoonin’ — The Book of Accidents Cements Chuck Wendig’s Status as a Master of Horror (!!).

“In the end, the destination was so worth the harrowing journey. Every worry, every heart-pounding moment, every hitch in my chest, and every swear word uttered…”

The Day also recommends it thusly:

“…Wendig — an outstanding craftsman with clever turns-of-phrase, a sharp descriptive eye, similes-as-miniature-works-of-art and a casually complex ease with character development — throws a variety of sci-fi and folkloric elements into the standard ‘Is there really Evil personified?’ recipe. I wouldn’t say it’s a bonus because his characters ARE so well drawn, but there’s a lot of observational wisdom in here that applies to our sad times.”

I’ll be doing a Reddit AMA this coming Tuesday.

And finally, if you’re still seeking a personalized copy, Doylestown Bookshop is ordering more books for that very purpose, so give them a call or put in a note during your online order.

Welcome To Ramble Rocks: The Book Of Accidents Is Out Now

Today is move-in day — the door to the house has opened wide, Ramble Rocks is open for business, the electric chair is empty, and something is calling you from deep inside the old tunnel. The Book of Accidents is now available in the US/CAN and the UK, and I’ll be talking a little more about it as the week goes on, though for my mileage, the less you know about the book going in? The better.

Let’s get some of those buy links out of the way now, shall we?

First, I’m still able to do personalized copies through Doylestown Bookshop.

If you just want signed copies, particularly where I’m doing virtual events, click here.

Signed copies in the UK: here.

Otherwise, please enjoy the book from:

Indiebound | Bookshop | The Strand | Powells

B&N | BAM | Amazon | Apple | Kobo | Google

Audible | Libro.fm

Some other links of note:

From The Guardian:

“It begins in a quite traditional way: a serial killer awaits death in the electric chair; years later, a married couple move with their emotionally fragile son to an isolated old house in the country … Yet this is neither a haunted house story nor another lurid look at an unfeasibly clever murderer, but something more interesting. Wendig combines cosmic horror and human heroism with his continuing theme of the traumatic effect of abusive relationships handed down from father to son; this is a rich, rewarding tale.”

This review (!!) in Grimdark Magazine by Beth Tabler:

“It is like a symphony starting with many discordant and uncomfortable notes that come together so fully the force of the cacophony nails you to your chair.”

A great review from the London Horror Society:

“There is a hint of Shirley Jackson in the new/old family home. A house isolated—despite the presence of neighbour, Jed—physically and psychologically. What goes on there is not bound by the normal rules of reality, but the book this put me in mind of the most was Black House by Stephen King and Peter Straub—but maybe with a touch of Junji Ito’s masterpiece Spiral; the sense that the wrongness at the heart of the story pulls at everything around it…”

I got to chat with the wonderful Scott Neumyer at Shondaland, if you wanna check it out: “Chuck Wendig Finally Got To Write His Haunted House Book

Here’s an interview with me at Grimdark Magazine.

And here’s an awesome video interview at Fango X from Fangoria. I had fun with this!

Also I got to chat a little with Gwenda Bond about the book on behalf of Subterranean Books — check that out here, over yonder hill and dale.

Of course, you can check out any of my virtual tour events here — and tonight kicks off with Aaron Mahnke and myself at the Avengers combo of PA bookstores: Doylestown Bookshop, Let’s Play Books, and Midtown Scholar.

Finally, Del Rey, in partnership with the horror streaming service Shudder, is running a sweepstakes where you can win six months of the streaming service and a hardcover copy of the book, if you’re so inclined to enter. I love Shudder and always find something spooky to watch there. Go forth, enter and win. And then go watch some horror movies.

I hope you check out the book, and if you feel like leaving a review or spreading the word, I’d appreciate it, otherwise I die flailing in the abyss, horror-clowns sucking at my toes as I sink deep into the unabiding dark. JUST SAYING.

Ada Hoffman: Five Things I Learned Writing The Fallen

The laws of physics acting on the planet of Jai have been forever upended; its surface completely altered, and its inhabitants permanently changed, causing chaos. Fearing heresy, the artificially intelligent Gods that once ruled the galaxy became the planet’s jailers.

Tiv Hunt, who once trusted these Gods completely, spends her days helping the last remaining survivors of Jai. Everyone is fighting for their freedom and they call out for drastic action from their saviour, Tiv’s girlfriend Yasira. But Yasira has become deeply ill, debilitated by her Outside exposure, and is barely able to breathe, let alone lead a revolution.

Hunted by the Gods and Akavi, the disgraced angel, Yasira and Tiv must delve further than ever before into the maddening mysteries of their fractured planet in order to save – or perhaps even destroy – their fading world.

1: Second Books Are Hard

They warned me! Everyone warned me! When you write your first novel you get to take your sweet time. When you write the sequel you’re under contract and you have to do it in a certain amount of time. It’s like having to learn your entire process over again.

It doesn’t help that, like, two years went by between landing an agent for The Outside and getting the green light from the publisher to write Book Two. When I finished writing The Outside, I was so in love with these characters and this setting, I was just chomping at the bit to write more. By the time I was actually allowed to write more? Time had passed. I was a different person. It took a lot of work to get that mojo back and I blew through a whole lot of deadlines in the process.

But I did it! I wrote the book, and now here we are. Because that’s the other thing about writers; we can do hard things.

2: Revisions Will Save Your Ass

The Outside had just two point-of-view characters – Yasira, who carried most of the novel, and Akavi, who got fun little “villain’s point of view” scenes now and then. The Fallen expands its scope – not just to more points of view but to more moving parts generally. Yasira and Tiv have been joined by a group of seven friends and oh my god why did I try to introduce seven new characters at once please do not do this to yourself. The climax of the book – I’m going to try to say this without spoilers – has them coordinating a bunch of dramatic things that happen dramatically in a bunch of places at the same time. This kind of expanded scope was essential to what I was doing with the book – it’s very much a book about collectivity, community, diversity of approaches towards a common goal. But also wow that was more moving parts than I could actually keep in my head at a time.

The solution? Revisions. Sure they’re annoying, and I’d rather get everything right the first time, but it turns out you can actually have seven vague underdeveloped secondary characters in a first draft, and then you can go back systematically and add more stuff about each character in all the scenes they’re in and people will be like “oh, your secondary characters are charming.”. You can have a final confrontation that’s sort of a rushed sketch of the major things that happen, and then you can go back, actually chart out what groups were involved in each of those major things and what their goals are, what major phases the whole operation goes through (including planning), what each group is doing in each phase, and add way more little scenes with way more detail, accordingly. Obvious writing advice is obvious, but, like, it’s fine! We get multiple passes at this stuff for a reason. You can be like a speed painter who adds more and more intricate detail with each pass over the canvas. Or at least I think that’s how speed painting works, I don’t know.

3: Isolation Sucks, Actually

I was writing about isolation before it was cool* (*spoiler: it’s not cool) simply for health reasons – I started work on The Fallen when I was in a complicated life situation and too burned out to do a lot besides go to my day job and then sit in bed with a blanket over me. Then of course the pandemic happened and now isolation is everyone’s problem.

I didn’t intend to make isolation a theme of the novel but, looking back at what I wrote, it’s everywhere. It’s in the backstory of Yasira and Tiv’s new friends, who were held prisoner by the Gods for years. It’s in the way Elu has to adjust to life without the information-rich networks he’s used to, when it’s not safe for him to interact with much of anyone but Akavi, and Akavi only interacts with him when it’s convenient. It’s in the way Yasira stays in her room out of trauma and exhaustion and the way Tiv causes problems, with the best of intentions, by trying to keep information from her for her own protection. Everyone in this book is at some level dealing with isolation, disconnection, or loss. Everyone who gets a happy ending gets it by finding new ways to connect and collaborate. A lot of this wasn’t even apparent to me until I finished writing, and then I did that thing authors do so often, where I looked back at it and went, “Oh, that’s what I was talking about,” and then blinked at myself with a suspicious expression.

I’m doing a lot better now, by the way. But still really looking forward to the day when I can go out and have a picnic with people again.

4: I Love Writing About Weird Buildings

It doesn’t play a big role in the novel, but there’s one chapter where Tiv goes and visits a museum that the Gods designed, and I fucking loved writing that chapter. It came out easily in a book where almost nothing came out easily. Give me a fictional space that was constructed to convey a sufficiently unusual experience and I will go wild designing its floorplan and writing what it’s like to move through it. I have no idea why I love this extremely specific thing.

5: Your Audiobook Narrator Is Going To Have To Actually Read This Shit Aloud

Writing a complicated telepathic conversation with a hive mind? Want to just splash phrases all over the page like an experimental poem to convey a multiplicity of collaborative but contrasting viewpoints within the same entity? Sure, go nuts, you’re already under contract for this book and you can do what you want.

But just know that the bewildered voice actor who’s trying to narrate the audiobook version will at some point call you on Zoom and be like “wait what is going on here? How do you want this read? Who is even talking in what part of this, exactly?” and you won’t have anything to say except “lol idk, good luck with that.”

Sorry, Nancy! I’m sure whatever you’ve come up with will be fine.

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Ada Hoffmann is the author of the space opera novel The Outside, as well as dozens of speculative short stories and poems. Ada’s work has been a finalist for the Philip K. Dick Award, the Compton Crook Award, and the WSFA Small Press Award, among others. She is also the author of the Autistic Book Party review series, devoted to in-depth #ownvoices discussions of autism representation in speculative fiction. Ada is an adjunct professor of computer science, as well as a former semi-professional soprano, tabletop gaming enthusiast, and LARPer. She lives in eastern Ontario.

Ada Hoffmann: Website | Twitter

The Fallen: Powells | Indiebound | B&N | Amazon

Ryan Van Loan: 4 Things I Learned While Writing The Justice in Revenge (And One Lesson Relearned)

The island nation of Servenza is a land of flint and steel, sail and gearwork, of gods both Dead and sleeping. It is a society where the wealthy few rule the impoverished many.

Determined to change that, former street-rat Buc, along with Eld, the ex-soldier who has been her partner in crime-solving, have claimed seats on the board of the powerful Kanados Trading Company. Buc plans to destroy the nobility from within—which is much harder than she expected.

Stymied by boardroom politics and dodging mages at every turn, Buc and Eld find a potential patron in the Doga, ruler of Servenza. The deal: by the night of the Masquerade, unmask whoever has been attempting to assassinate the Doga, thereby earning her support in the halls of power. Blow the deadline and she’ll have them deported to opposite ends of the world.

Armed with Eld’s razor-sharp sword and Buc’s even sharper intellect, the dynamic duo hit the streets just as the shadow religious conflict between the Gods begins to break into open warfare. Those closest to Buc and Eld begin turning up with their throats slit amid rumors that a hidden mastermind is behind everything that’s going wrong in Servenza.

Facing wrathful gods, hostile nobles, and a secret enemy bent on revenge, Buc and Eld will need every trick in their arsenal to survive. Luckily, extra blades aren’t the only things Buc has hidden up her sleeves.

Sequels are the easiest books to write.

I was completely unprepared for how much FUN it was going to be returning to the world of Sambuciña ‘Buc’ Alhurra and her partner-in-crime-solving and master swordsman, Eld. I’ve written a fair number of novels (12), but aside from this one and the concluding novel to The Fall of the Gods series, those were all first novels. As a lifelong reader I should have been prepared, right? One of the best things about a favorite series is watching the characters and the world grow before our eyes. There’s a reason why Frodo and Samwise linger with us longer than Bilbo does. And there’s a reason why I really enjoyed writing this novel. If you’re not familiar with Buc, she’s an autodidact streetrat who isn’t afraid to use a blade when others’ brains prove too slow to follow her own. Eld is there for when her mind and tongue get her into situations where one blade won’t be enough. The pair are a loaded blunderbuss and I’m the one who gets to pull the trigger. It was a literal blast. Beyond that, I got to dig into worldbuilding and magic more this time around (it is a fantasy novel after all) and watching Servenza, this island gear-wrought city-state rise from the blank page like Atlantis returned was really cool. Cooler still was showing us magic through the warring rival mages’ eyes (and talons and fangs), whether it was Sin Eaters with their mind magic allowing them to communicate with their Goddess directly or the Dead Gods using blood magic to transform into were-creatures or better yet, Buc and Eld caught in between both sides. And the foreshadowing, ye Gods, the foreshadowing. It was almost too much fun.

Sequels are the hardest books to write.

Say what? I know, I know I just said how much fun I had writing this one and I absolutely did, but if a book was going to ruin my confidence in my ability as a writer it was this one. Why? Well, last time Chuck had me on, I talked about discovering I had a brand: that there are specific aspects of storytelling I tend to really lean into (fast pacing, tight transitions, fireworks, all tied together by emotional character arcs). In writing The Justice in Revenge I discovered I had an audience. I didn’t know who they were just yet, they were faceless ephemeral, but they were waiting: someone (hopefully a lot of someones) was going to read this book and this was the first time I’d ever known that for a fact. When you’re in the query trenches as a young writer, past the first book or three, you start to forget that the goal is for a lot of people to read your book because it just doesn’t seem likely to happen. The odds are astronomical and in their enormity, there’s some freedom. I didn’t realize how much freedom until I sat down to write the opening chapter and realized, holy shit, YOU are going to read this. Or your sister might. Or her friend. Or their friend’s Mom (sorry for the swears, Mom). That kind of pressure puts a lot of weight on the mental cogs turning in my mind that eventually translates to my fingers moving across a keyboard and, through the magic of the written language, creating a story. A novel. I usually write a pretty solid first draft. I may add some scenes, tweak a few moments, and play with the linework, but it’s rare I have to make major changes. This one required a significant rewrite. One sans nerves. I really love how it all came out, but boy howdy, was I unprepared for the journey it would take me on.

I can juggle better than I knew I could.

I’ve never been much of a juggler…I can just manage three balls for a few tosses without dropping them, but that’s about the extent of it. In my daily life, I do juggle a day job and writing and having an actual (sort of) life. I’ve been doing that for years now and I’ve got that down pat, but when it comes to the business of writing, I’ve alway been very methodical: do one thing at a time, then move on. I was never one who could query while drafting a new novel for example. I could brainstorm, outline, but I couldn’t do prose until I was ready to start the next novel. Well, turns out being a published author changes things. I no longer have the luxury of doing one thing at a time…a lesson I learned on the fly while finishing final edits with The Justice in Revenge. Basically, in the spring/summer of 2020 (recall that summer? Of the pandemic and reckoning with systemic racism and the decade that was 2020) I was editing Book Two, promoting Book One for my debut release, writing the conclusion with Book Three, and my dayjob was in healthcare…it was A LOT. I survived it, though, and I learned that I can do multiple things in multiple areas at once. It’s not always fun, but it’s called being a professional and I realized if I want to make my dreams a reality, I need to level up. I’ll say this though, I never knew how full my brain could feel until I had 4 versions of Book One, 2 versions of Book Two, and a coalescing version of Book Three in my head. This is why authors talk to themselves, folks. Well…one reason anyway.

I have (almost) no control over the success of my career.

“The rocket’s already been launched, so there’s not much more we can do but watch.” I think my agent, DongWon Song, meant those words to be comforting to me when I asked them two weeks before The Sin in the Steel hit shelves, what more I should be doing to ensure the book that had won me an agent and a 3-book deal with Tor Books would find readers. What I really was asking was, “How do I ensure this book is a financial success? That the book, and ergo me, are not failures? Flops?” The answer, I learned, over the course of the past year, is that you don’t.

You can’t.

I’ve never been a fan of can’t. You can’t write a novel, only special people do that. You can’t write another novel, the first was a fluke. You can’t write something good enough to land an agent. You can’t get a book deal. You can’t have a career as a writer. A lot of can’ts I’ve heard or told myself in the lonely, midnight hour of the blank page and I’ve overcome all of them. Save that last. So I did what I’ve always done when faced with can’t. I threw everything I had at it…and here is where reality asserts itself, friends. Turns out, one person can’t actually do a whole lot themselves. That’s why publishing exists (duh, Ryan). The problem with that, is, publishing is a numbers game. No one knows what will stick, so they chuck a bit of everything at the wall and wait and see. I’ve no complaints with the toss Tor gave The Sin in the Steel, far from it, but once the book hit shelves they were onto the next book and I was still there, screaming out into the void that you all should read my little adventure fantasy with heart. There were pirate queens for Dog’s sake! It’s a lonely time when you realize that whereas a publisher can make waves, you can barely stir ripples. It’s not that those ripple don’t matter, every one that finds a reader absolutely matters, but ripples don’t make one a bestseller overnight. It was something I should have remembered, because writing is like that every step of the way. A sentence doesn’t make a paragraph and a paragraph doesn’t make a chapter and a chapter doesn’t make a book. There’s a lot of rowing to be done before that bathtub crosses the Atlantic (to repeat one of my favorite Stephen King quotes on writing) and you get to type ‘The End’. I’m not sure if I’ll ever fully make my peace with the fact that I’ve set my sights on a career that is so externally subjective, but I do know that I can keep writing and that brings me to the lesson I relearned this past year.

I have all the control in the world: butt in chair; hands on keyboard

Hamilton, the musical has a wonderful line in the number Hurricane: “I’ll write my way out.” In the musical, Hamilton, full of ego, thinks to write his way out of being caught paying off the man whose wife he was sleeping with, and instead ruins his marriage and political aspirations. There’s many lessons to learn there, but to be fair to Hamilton, he had written himself out of poverty, into college, into the right hand of Washington, into his future, socially superior wife’s heart, and into the Constitution and that’s the lesson I relearned this past year. I don’t have control over something so nebulous as a career, but I do have control of what I do in those fleeting moments between book releases. Butt in chair; hands on keyboard, is oft repeated advice to new writers–that the only way to complete a book is to show up and put in the work. I’ve a sneaking suspicion that the only way to keep having books land on library shelves and in bookstores is along the same lines.

I said a moment ago that I probably wouldn’t ever make peace about my lack of control, but when I’m writing, I am at peace. It doesn’t mean writing comes easily, the story flowing effortlessly from the keys to the screen, but I am happy and full of purpose and hopefully those feelings, however fleeting, however ephemeral, do shine through on the page. We can’t all be Alexander Hamilton (and I’m not sure we should try, the dude did a lot but had some pretty serious flaws as well), but we can try to write our way out. That’s what I’ve been doing while writing Justice and the conclusion to the trilogy, The Memory in the Blood. Writing my way out…I hope you’ll come and join me.

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Ryan Van Loan is a Fantasy author who served six years as a Sergeant in the United States Army Infantry (PA National Guard) where he served on the front lines of Afghanistan. His work has appeared in numerous places including Tor.com and Fireside Magazine. His debut novel, The Sin in the Steel (Tor Books), Book One in the Fall of the Gods series came out in Summer 2020, the sequel, The Justice in Revenge follows on July 13, 2021, and the conclusion to the series, The Memory in the Blood drops Summer 2022.

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