This year, we appear to be having a mast year for these nuts — a mast year meaning, a year of superfluity. More nuts than usual appear. (Roll the tape on\u00a0a 2016 election metaphor.) And this year, our dogs have taken to… well, eating them.<\/p>\n
They hunt them like truffle-hungry pigs.<\/p>\n
The one dog hunts them, then discards them. The other eats them.<\/p>\n
I figured I’d better suss\u00a0out what these nuts\u00a0are<\/em>, because they’re probably poisonous. The dogs are not wise. The dogs lick butts. They eat poop. They will, given half-a-moment, eat a poisonous mushroom. Dogs are wonderful, but let’s just say they’re not getting into a good school.<\/p>\n I searched. I Googled. I beseeched the gods.<\/p>\n And it turned out, we have hickory nut trees.<\/p>\n Shagbark hickory nut trees, which is to say, the trees have shaggy, loose, dangling bark — as if they are constantly trying to be rid of their own TREEFLESH, as if they are suffering from some kind of BARK LEPROSY.<\/p>\n And it turns out, you can eat hickory nuts.<\/p>\n (Dogs can, but mostly shouldn’t. Not poisonous immediately, but over time.)<\/p>\n One day I picked one up.<\/p>\n And I knew immediately I shouldn’t eat it. It’s a cardinal rule, isn’t it? DON’T EAT SHIT YOU FIND IN THE FUCKING WOODS, WEIRDO. That mushroom? Don’t eat it. That bug? Don’t eat it! That hamburger? Why is there a hamburger in the woods? That’s a trapburger, probably put there by a trapburger spider. Don’t eat that. Run away. Call somebody. Jeez.<\/p>\n Also, don’t eat weird nuts you find.<\/p>\n Just don’t do it.<\/p>\n That’s Life\u00a0101, man. PUT THAT WEIRD THING DOWN AND GO EAT A TACO.<\/p>\n But then —<\/p>\n Then I thought, it’s getting weird out there. I’m not a survivalist. I’m not a\u00a0doomsday prepper<\/em>. But I’m starting to feel that frequency, you get me? I’m kinda sorta like, UH-OH, all<\/em> the time. A constant series of UH-OHs, endlessly looping in my head. Like, if you told me, IN SIX MONTHS, CIVILIZATION WILL HAVE FALLEN, I’d be upset<\/em>, but also not precisely\u00a0shocked<\/em>, either. I’d nod and say, “Uh-huh, okay, okay.” I would maybe subscribe to your newsletter.<\/p>\n But that makes me worry even more: how unprepared am I? Am I really prepared for the collapse of civilization? I can’t eat my blog. My blog won’t even exist. I can maybe use the comp copies of my novels to build a shelter. I guess I could hunt and kill my neighbors, but — *whistles* — that seems drastic. Wouldn’t it be easier if I… learned to live off the land? Wouldn’t it be ideal if I learned how to\u00a0forage<\/em> like a fucking\u00a0forager<\/em> in the woods? The pioneers did it. The native peoples did it before, y’know, those goddamned pioneers came and fucked everything up.<\/p>\n I thought,\u00a0I can do it, too<\/em>.<\/p>\n I can eat these nuts<\/em>.<\/p>\n And I did. I took that nut, and I gently pressed on it with my sneaker until — yes,\u00a0yesss<\/em>, there came that gentle mouse-skull crackle.<\/p>\n But I did not press down all the way. I then took the nut, peeled away its UNFEELING CHITINOUS EXTERIOR and then got at the nutmeat inside.<\/p>\n (There is no less palatable a phrase than “nutmeat,” by the way, unless of course you are so inclined to add “moist” to it as an adjective.)<\/p>\n (MOIST NUTMEAT.)<\/p>\n (Sorry.)<\/p>\n The nutmeat — okay, let’s just call it “the nut” — had a wonderful smell. A little bit pecan, but also a little bit\u00a0butter-and-maple-syrup<\/em>. It had a pancake satisfaction to it.<\/p>\n Then I put it in my mouth.<\/p>\n It was sweet. A little vegetal. It had that maple syrup vibe.<\/p>\n Like a\u00a0sassy<\/em> pecan, or a\u00a0flirty<\/em> walnut.<\/p>\n It appealed to me in more than just taste, though — it appealed to that ego-fed hipster thing that lives inside some of us, right? “I discovered a new thing,” you think, and it’s the same thing that tickles your mental perineum as when you discover some strange new coffee or a weird new fruit or some rad\u00a0new YOGURT BAR where they serve like, MONKEY YOGURT or some shit. You both want to be the one to have discovered it and Instagrammed it and you also want to take all your friends down to the place, “YOU GUYS YOU NEED TO TRY THIS SMALL-BATCH LOCALLY-SOURCED MONKEY YOGURT, YOU CAN HAVE IT HOWEVER YOU LIKE, MY FAVORITE WAY IS TO ADD IN THE ESSENCE OF BANANA WATER AND\u00a0BEE LEGS AS WELL AS A FINE DUSTING OF EXFOLIATED PYRITE.” I suspect this is in part just ego-boo, but maybe there’s also something evolutionary at work — the pride of discovering a thing that can both feed your tribe and<\/em>\u00a0also give you the social boost juice to go along with it.<\/p>\n Who knows.<\/p>\n Either way, I ate a random nut.<\/p>\n And it was good.<\/p>\n But then I thought, this is not a good thing I just did. I just took my sneaker, which may or may not have particles of dog poop on it, and I rolled it across the thing I just ate. I’m no better than the dogs. That’s how you get butt-worms. That’s not how you become the Cool Guy In The Village Who Discovered Those Tasty Nuts. That’s how you become Creepy Dave In The Faraway Hut Don’t Go Near Him He Has Raging Out-of-Control Butt-Worms.<\/p>\n I thought, I need to do this right.<\/p>\n I gathered some nuts.<\/p>\n I took them home.<\/p>\n I tried to crack them, which was a lot like trying to crack a safe with a pair of chopsticks. It just didn’t work. Mister Google said: “Use a hammer.” So I used a hammer, and I hammered the nut, and the nut spun away and hit my son in the head, and he frowned at me and I said YOU SHOULDN’T BE NEAR DADDY WHEN HE’S DOING IMPORTANT WORK and I left it at that. Then I got a pair of pliers, and that did<\/em> work, except for the part where it obliterated the shell and<\/em> the nutmeat (ew) into an inedible paste.<\/p>\n So, I thought, this shit isn’t worth it.<\/p>\n These nuts are stupid. Fuck these nuts. These are fucknuts. That’s where that word comes from, I decided. But. But! Maybe this was\u00a0a lesson. A lesson I needed to learn. Sometimes, good things are<\/em> worth it. A hard hike will take you to a beautiful lookout. A wonderful marriage can take some deep soul-searching. Sometimes to get the reward, you gotta put in the effort.<\/p>\n I renewed my assault.<\/p>\n I collected more nuts. A whole goddamn bucket’s worth. I wandered the roads and byways, the woods and forests, gathering nuts like a man-shaped squirrel. My wife watched me with grim fascination, and at one point she asked me, “Is this where you’re becoming an old man? Like, officially?” And I said YOU GO TO HELL I’M GOING TO GO OUT ON THE PORCH AND LISTEN TO BIRDS AND CRACK MY NUTS AND DIE PEACEFULLY.<\/p>\n Okay I didn’t say that, I instead said, “Yes, probably.”<\/p>\n But I did go watch a pileated woodpecker, which was nice.<\/p>\n These, then, were the nuts I collected:<\/p>\n And I got a fancy new nutcracker, too.<\/p>\n This was my setup last night:<\/p>\n I thought, here it is. Here we go. It’s\u00a0worth it<\/em> time. Time to make the nutmeat, baby. And already I had visions of harvesting tons of hickory nuts and cornering the market on hickory nuts because\u00a0nobody<\/em> sells hickory nuts, ha ha ha, I’m a genius, I thought.<\/p>\n A FUCKING NUTMEAT TYCOON. COUNTING MY NUTMONEY, DIVING IN AND OUT OF IT LIKE SCROOGE MOTHERFUCKING MCDUCK.<\/p>\n I gathered my supplies.<\/p>\n My son gathered around, excited.<\/p>\n My wife remained at a distance, dubious.<\/p>\n I placed the first nut into the NUT-CRUSHING CHAMBER:<\/p>\n Then I pulled the lever —<\/p>\n And the damn nut-cracker slipped out of my hand, onto the floor.<\/p>\n “Misfire,” I said.<\/p>\n “Oops,” said my son.<\/p>\n My wife frowned.<\/p>\n I tried again. Pressure. PRESSURE.<\/p>\n Nothing.<\/p>\n “I need to mount this somewhere,” I said.<\/p>\n “No,” my wife said, as her long,\u00a0well-reasoned\u00a0argument.<\/p>\n My son said, “Let me try,” and he’s six so I knew he wouldn’t be able to do it, but then I was like, oh shit what if he can, he will totally upstage me. But, bonus: now I have child labor, so that’s nice. Still — no, nope, he couldn’t do it, either.<\/p>\n I fidgeted with the nut (get your head out of the gutter) and tried again.<\/p>\n This time —<\/p>\n Kkkk<\/em>.<\/p>\n It was happening.<\/p>\n KkKKKT.<\/em><\/p>\n I did it! I crushed a nut!<\/p>\n I AM PROMETHUS STEALING NUTS FROM THE NUTGODS<\/p>\n I AM HERO MAN FEEDING HIMSELF AND HIS FAMILY WITH NUTMEAT okay still ew, FEEDING HIMSELF AND HIS FAMILY WITH THE GOLDEN HICKORYFLESH, that sounds better, AND NOW NONE CAN DEFEAT HIM<\/p>\n OR ME BECAUSE I AM HIM<\/p>\n WHATEVER SHUT UP<\/p>\n So, here we go, I thought. Let’s get\u00a0nutty<\/em>.<\/p>\n The next one I crushed, I crushed hard.<\/p>\n As in, I pulverized it.<\/p>\n Okay, fine, cool. I read online that you can take a pick of some kind and extract the hickory goodness, so I did that — got a dental floss pick thingy, and began scraping meat out of the shells, scrape, scrape, scrape.<\/p>\n After about ten minutes, I had:<\/p>\n Okay, you know, that’s not good. That’s not a good ten minutes worth of effort. That’s like a… a shitty ROI, isn’t it? Urgh. I could’ve taken no time and just eaten an apple. I could’ve made a grilled cheese sandwich in half the time. This was not good.<\/p>\n My son said, “Can I have one?”<\/p>\n “That’s your college education right there, hands off.”<\/p>\n He looked at me and wandered away.<\/p>\n As\u00a0the saying goes,\u00a0slow and steady wins the race<\/em>. I had started to figure out these nuts. They were a mystery, and I was the Hercule Poirot\u00a0to solve them. I knew that if you put them in lengthwise, and\u00a0applied increasing pressure<\/em>, you could get the shell to crack\u00a0without<\/em> disrupting the golden hickory goodness inside. That was the secret, I thought. I had their number.<\/p>\n I continued to crack nuts.<\/p>\n One out of every three nuts would be intact.<\/p>\n The others would be pulverized.<\/p>\n So I would scrape, scrape, scrape.<\/p>\n My arm started to hurt.<\/p>\n My wife and son where in the other room, watching TV.<\/p>\n Their life was ongoing. Mine was here,\u00a0at the dining room table, judiciously cracking nuts. Sometimes one would explode in the NUT VISE, and throw shards of sharp shell into my face. I would scream when this happened. “I am enjoying this,” my wife said, probably being serious.<\/p>\n I kept on. They didn’t understand.<\/p>\n NOBODY UNDERSTOOD MY GENIUS.<\/p>\n An hour went by.<\/p>\n I put a nut into the vice.<\/p>\n I applied pressure, squeezing, squeezing —<\/p>\n It popped open.<\/p>\n And maggots spilled out.<\/p>\n I screamed.<\/p>\n Two maggots writhed inside the shell.<\/p>\n “I AM XANTHOS,” the first maggot said, rising to greet me.<\/p>\n “I AM VORTHOX,” the second maggot said, coiling in the dark.<\/p>\n In gurgled simultaneity they said, “WE ARE THE COSMIC WORLD-EATER WORMS. YOU HAVE HATCHED US. WE ARE UNLEASHED UPON THE EARTH. NOW WE WILL CHEW THROUGH THE PLANET\u00a0AS SURE AS WE WOULD CHEW TO THE HEART OF AN APPLE. BUT FIRST WE WILL TEACH YOU THE FIRST LESSON OF OUR KIND, WHICH IS THIS: HICKORY NUTS ARE BULLSHIT, AND DUDE, YOU COULD JUST GO AND BUY A BUNCH OF PECANS AT BULK, YOU FUCKING DINGLEBERRY. NOW LET US FREE SO THAT WE MAY CONSUME THE FABRIC OF THIS REALITY BEFORE WE MOVE, MAD AND STARVING, ONTO THE NEXT.”<\/p>\n “Is everything okay in there?” my wife asked.<\/p>\n “Yes,” I lied.<\/p>\n I scooped up the nut with the twin maggots and I quickly threw it outside, where I’m pretty sure the one dog ate it, so that’s cool.<\/p>\n My son said, “What were those?”<\/p>\n “Maggots,” I said, neglecting to mention their names.<\/p>\n “Oh, cool,” he said, and it was kinda cool, in a gross way.<\/p>\n “I think I’m done with these nuts,” I said to my wife.<\/p>\n “That’s probably for the best,” she answered.<\/p>\n I looked down at the nutmeats of my labor:<\/p>\n That was about… ohh, 15% of the total nuts I collected, if I’m being generous.<\/p>\n I thought, fuck it, let’s just roast them and be done.<\/p>\n Weary and hallucinating, I put them in the oven with some salt.<\/p>\n They were fine.<\/p>\n I ate them and had mild diarrhea.<\/p>\n Hickory nuts are bullshit, I’m going to go buy pecans instead.<\/p>\n But I have heard that if you peel the bark, and you smoke it, and then boil it with some water and sugar, you can make shagbark hickory syrup and —<\/p>\n My wife, from the other room: “No.”<\/p>\n Good point, lady, good point.<\/p>\n (Don’t tell her, but I already collected the bark.)<\/p>\n * * *<\/p>\n Having been desperate to rid herself of her psychic powers, Miriam now finds herself armed with the solution \u2014 a seemingly impossible one. But Miriam\u2019s past is catching up to her, just as she\u2019s trying to leave it behind. A copy-cat killer has caught the public\u2019s attention. An old nemesis is back from the dead. And Louis, the ex she still loves, will commit an unforgivable\u00a0 act if she doesn\u2019t change the future.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n Miriam knows that only a great sacrifice is enough to counter fate. Can she save Louis, stop the killer, and survive?\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n Hunted and haunted, Miriam is coming to a crossroads, and nothing is going to stand in her way, not even the Trespasser.<\/strong><\/p>\n The 5th Miriam Black book — out January 23rd, 2018<\/em><\/p>\n Preorder Raptor & Wren:<\/strong> Indiebound<\/strong><\/a> | <\/a>Amazon<\/strong><\/a> | <\/a>B&N<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I walk sometimes. I walk with the dogs. We walk through all seasons, down backroads, past farms, past barns, past fields. 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