{"id":30890,"date":"2017-03-29T12:12:38","date_gmt":"2017-03-29T16:12:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/terribleminds.com\/ramble\/?p=30890"},"modified":"2017-03-29T12:12:38","modified_gmt":"2017-03-29T16:12:38","slug":"lilith-saintcrow-when-a-short-story-wont-stay-short-for-long","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/terribleminds.com\/ramble\/2017\/03\/29\/lilith-saintcrow-when-a-short-story-wont-stay-short-for-long\/","title":{"rendered":"Lilith Saintcrow: When A Short Story Won’t Stay Short For Long"},"content":{"rendered":"

Lilith Saintcrow is bad-ass. Fireside Magazine is also bad-ass. Hence they are a bad-ass team-up who will use your soul like a soggy dishrag. Lilith is here to talk about the rough birth of a short story — and what happens when that short story isn’t the end of the story.<\/em><\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

When Fireside asked me to do a short story for them, I was both thrilled and somewhat nervous. I had this idea \u2014 a woman, detached from almost every emotion, suddenly presented with a job she discovered she didn\u2019t want to do.<\/p>\n

There are some writers who find short stories somewhat easy. Not quite taking a fully-fibered-up crap, but close, with very little straining.<\/p>\n

I am not one of them. My short story process generally goes like this:<\/p>\n

Someone wants me to write a short story! Hooray!<\/p>\n

Wait. Wait a second. That means I actually have to write a short story.<\/p>\n

Goddammit.<\/p>\n

\u2026okay, I can do this. Maybe.<\/p>\n

Throw myself at the idea four or five times, writing a substantial chunk each time.[1]<\/a><\/p>\n

Toss them all into the Story Graveyard[2]<\/a> because said ideas are either too complex for a short story or I decide they\u2019re hideous. Throw myself at another two attempts. Toss those out too.<\/p>\n

Frustrated weeping.<\/p>\n

Staring into space. One or two more attempts, also tossed out.<\/p>\n

Deadline approaching. Panic.[3]<\/a><\/p>\n

Go back through every single attempt I tossed away. One or two hold promise.<\/p>\n

Start from scratch. Story suddenly slides out like a watermelon through an episiotomy, looking completely different from any of the prior attempts.<\/p>\n

Finish a draft of the story, go looking for bourbon or chocolate, don\u2019t look at draft for a week.<\/p>\n

Go back and discover that I\u2019ve written a short story, and now all I have to do is wait for the editor to tell me they hate it, but that will be all right because after all that agony, I hate it too.<\/p>\n

All of the above is to say I envy those who actually like<\/em> writing short stories, or choose to work in that medium instead of just doing it because you know it\u2019s good for you. Like exercise, or eating broccoli.[4]<\/a><\/p>\n

But Fireside needed the story, I\u2019d already agreed, and there was no retreat possible. I also didn\u2019t want to send the money back.<\/p>\n

Hey, I have kids, and they need to eat.<\/p>\n

So I began feeling my way around the edges of the story. Mostly, I wanted to explore the idea of motherhood from inside the head of a woman who didn\u2019t believe in anything but efficiency of emotion, efficacy of movement, and a complete lack of qualm over murder.<\/p>\n

The more our society puts motherhood on a pedestal every May, the less attention is paid to the fact that it\u2019s a dirty, dangerous, exhausting, thankless job.[5]<\/a> There is a certain incandescent relief when someone openly admits as much; it validates one\u2019s own less-than-Hallmark experiences in the parenting field.<\/p>\n

At first, the mother in the proto-story had a name, and the child she found did not. As I made attempt after attempt, I began to realize that was the problem. I was fucking around with archetypes. Slowly, over various drafts and attempts, the picture shifted.<\/p>\n

Normally a character\u2019s name is part and package of the whole-soul deal one makes, a la<\/em> Henry James and his characters \u2014 \u201cActively believe in us, and then you\u2019ll see.\u201d In this case, it was an impediment.<\/p>\n

So I threw away everything I\u2019d written so far, and all of a sudden, the story began to breathe.<\/p>\n

She was a cyborg, you see. When you\u2019re functionally immortal and just as functionally enslaved by a corporation that made you that way, deciding not to waste energy on emotion is a smart move. When, all of a sudden, you\u2019re presented with the one job you told your handlers you would not perform, what do you do?<\/p>\n

Thus was born Maternal Type<\/em>, the short story. Fireside readers liked it, and in talking to Brian White, Fireside\u2019s editor, I inadvertently let slip that it was only the beginning of the story.[6]<\/a> The real fun, I had discovered, happened afterward, out in the radioactive waste with cowboys, mutants, cyborgs, hiveminds, corporate mining towns, and gigantic worms probably showing up because I\u2019d reread some parts of Dune<\/em> during the months of wrestling to write the goddamn short story and it had lodged firmly in my subconscious, as things tend to do when you jack into the ether and dredge fiction up from swirling, dangerous depths.<\/p>\n

Brian\u2019s editorial ears perked. Of course I could write more, I replied numbly, suspecting just what kind of trouble I was about to get myself into. The story had opened, like a puzzle box full of Pinheads just waiting to use hooks and chains and thinly veiled erotic horror to titillate a moviegoing crowd.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s part of my problem with short stories. They\u2019re never the whole<\/em> tale; they are the part of the iceberg you see. The rest \u2014 the chunk I founder on \u2014 lurks sharklike, ready to tear out your hull.<\/p>\n

No, short stories are not really my cuppa. But a novel-length serial? That, I knew how to do.[7]<\/a><\/p>\n

Thus was born She Wolf and Cub<\/em>, my love song to (including but not limited to) Ogami Itto and Daigoro his son, cowboy movies, the Terminator movies, pro-choice protestors, every Wild Western trope I could lay my hands on, Kage Baker\u2019s Company novels, and a mass of thoughts and feelings about motherhood.<\/p>\n

Longtime readers will know one of the early attempts to write Maternal Type<\/em> ended up as Pack<\/em>, where the named narrator chooses to take on the burden of a half-feral child in a Cthulhu-infested postapocalyptic wasteland. That, in itself, surprised me \u2014 most of the short-story attempts end up in the mulch pile I call the Story Graveyard, sitting on my hard drive and fermenting, providing ballast and microbes to other works but not growing in their own right.<\/p>\n

What also surprised me was that upon revising She Wolf<\/em> for publication as a novel, I noticed things I hadn\u2019t seen before. Like the theme of choice, of the liberating component of decision, like the idea that motherhood, when not forced upon a passive and resentful subject, is an active verb.<\/p>\n

I tell new writers not to worry about themes. They are carrion eaters, showing up everywhere there\u2019s food. You won\u2019t be able to swing a dead operative in your cyborg-assassin-cowboy stories without hitting one, or two, or a whole passel of them. Like that other worry, voice, they will come if you produce enough work for all those things you think about, all those things you hide, every embarrassment and joy rub through one\u2019s social persona to make you the person you are<\/em>.<\/p>\n

Storytelling is a continuous process of peeling back interior layers. Not that readers should confuse authors with their characters, no. Writing as an internal event strips those layers, and the multiple choices made \u2014 each word, each sentence, each event \u2014 echoes while they sandblast the inside of a writer.<\/p>\n

Sound pleasant? No? Well, like parenthood, nobody ever said writing was easy.<\/p>\n

The day I finished revision, dinner was pizza because my brain was fried. The kids love this part of the process. When copyedits or revisions land, the joy of Mum being too tired to cook is somewhat tempered by the fact that I will be in my office swearing as if I\u2019m putting together Ikea furniture, often at top volume.<\/p>\n

\u201cSo you finished?\u201d my daughter asked.<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah. I think.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cSo\u2026\u201d They tend to get them mixed up. \u201cWhich one\u2019s this?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThe cyborg western.\u201d<\/p>\n

My son\u2019s ears perked up. \u201cOh, that one!\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYeah,\u201d I said. \u201cLots of murder and riding camels.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBoth good things,\u201d my daughter said sagely, taking a large bite of pepperoni-crusted cheese.<\/p>\n

They, like the short stories, are sometimes difficult, but in the end, definitely<\/em> my children, and no-one else\u2019s.<\/p>\n

Motherhood has its price. What is bought with that coin marks you forever. I knew that, but the cyborg didn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

Now, with the finished book out in the world, she does.<\/p>\n

…<\/p>\n

[1]<\/a> Incidentally, this is the way I approach most things. I\u2019m told it\u2019s very amusing to watch.<\/p>\n

[2]<\/a> See below.<\/p>\n

[3]<\/a> This is where my writing partner gets tired of me.<\/p>\n

[4]<\/a> Before you yell at me for hating broccoli, look, I don\u2019t. It\u2019s just not a luxurious food I can roll around in. Like cheese. Or dark chocolate. Or Thai peanut sauce.<\/p>\n

[5]<\/a> See Ann Crittenden\u2019s The Price of Motherhood<\/em>.<\/p>\n

[6]<\/a> He may remember this part differently. I suspect bourbon was a component on both sides.<\/p>\n

[7]<\/a> Well, really, writing a novel doesn\u2019t teach you how to write a novel, it just teaches you to write the one you\u2019re writing now, and all that. But after having done it 50+ times, I think I can stumble through the process without too much frustrated banging my head on my desk. Maybe. Someday.<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

Lilith\u00a0Saintcrow is the author of several fantasy, science fiction, romance, and Young Adult series. She lives in Vancouver, Washington, with two children, two dogs, three cats, a guinea pig, and various other assorted strays.<\/em><\/p>\n

Lilith Saintcrow: Website<\/span><\/a> | Twitter<\/span><\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

She-Wolf And Cub: Amazon<\/span><\/a> | Apple<\/span><\/a> | Kobo<\/span><\/a> | B&N<\/span><\/a> | Goodreads<\/a><\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

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